if you didn't hook up with her, we could be so much more right now.

I say I don't believe in love because I've never experienced what love is. Sure I love my family, I love my friends, but that's the type of love that makes you feel warm and fuzzy inside. What type of love am I looking for? The type that makes me hot and cold. The love that will take me to the end of the world and back. I want a fire.

I always thought that...

if I left Sacramento I could get away from my family and all of the responsibilities attached to it. But what was I kidding? Its my fucking family. I can never get away from it. Why the fuck am I down here for school? Fuck. My. Life.

LOL REALLY?

A penguin? A domo? Fuck; good shit.

I want a boy that's dumb enough to run around in the rain with me.

Honestly...

I feel like i'm just forcing myself to like him because I'm not as hurt about him but there are always those awkward moments and I don't know...I just wish he'd leave.

I'm scared...

that I've fallen for him and he's moved on. I think he's into another girl and is going to move in with her soon, why did he have to do this to me? FML.